But We Know the Truth

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     These past few months, I've been in a season where a particular person has been speaking negatively about my character and my heart's intentions.

     This person clearly thought/thinks that I am a certified jerk. And I felt helpless in a way, because I was not allowed to defend myself or share my side of certain events.  And to know, that there was nothing that I could do to convince this person of my good intentions or to change their mind about their perception of me, drove me insane.

     The depths of my people-pleasing nature were found out. And I had to trust God in a new way. I had to trust that He would defend my character at the end of the day.

     It's one thing to have "Jerky" moments, of which I do. I'm not pretending that I don't. But it's another thing to have someone define you as a complete jerk and write you off.

     I mean, was that truth of who I was--an unforgivable jerk?

     As I was sharing the weight of these things with a friend of mine, and examining my own worth and identity, she gently said to me, like a healing balm..."But we know the truth."



Wisdom's Knocking:

The truth of your character will always find it's way to the light.


3-2-1

     Have you done something lately that has challenged and scared you a bit? I did, earlier this month, by taking on a new job position with exciting new responsibilities. It was one of those things where I decided to just jump. I didn't dwell on all of the possible things that could go wrong. Instead, I just, ever so gently, moved forward, centimeter by centimeter.

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     Taking a risk like that was such a breath of fresh air. and now, being on the other side of the challenge. I can say, with full confidence, that it was completely worth it.


     I'm more determined than ever, to make sure I step out into something scary and challenging at least once a month. Normally, my preferred stance would be that of someone hiding.  But jumping into the unknown and being seen in the midst of it is not as scary as I once thought, but actually quite freeing.


Wisdom's Knocking:

Risk is the special ingredient in the recipe of Accomplishment.


Casual Intentions

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     I was having a great conversation with a good friend of mine yesterday. We chatted about love, life, and the lack of those two words being hyphenated together in our midst.

     I shared with her briefly how a certain guy friend of mine was being intentionally friendly, but at the same time very casual in regards to his emotions. In my world, casual intentions are a bit of an oxymoron.
    
     Nevertheless, I fear that our generation has become proficient in this term casual intentions. I find it more and more difficult to discern if one of my guy friends is trying to put feelers out romantically or if they are just being nice. So instead, I get to sit in limbo. Because you didn't make it clear. You didn't man-up. And chances are, I'll only voluntarily sit in your casual-intentions limbo for about 2 weeks. I have little patience for the lack of pursuit--even if I was open to the idea of being with you.


     I fear that casual intentions are the killers of passion. I may be focusing on the romantic aspect of casual intentions (Out of my own frustrations), but this theme of casual intentions can invade the way in which someone pursues life in general...

     I'm curious to hear from both you ladies and gents that skim over my blog posts occasionally.

     Thoughts, comments, rants?


Wisdom's Knocking:

Live life intentionally.


My Thinking Face

     


      I don't know if it's a played-out pick up line or sincerity, but I'm a little tired of guys coming up to me, with their so called swagger telling me, "You need to smile."

     I'm an observer and avid listener by nature. Chances are, I already saw you 5 minutes before you decided to walk up to me. And in my mind, I'm trying to understand 3 key things: 1. Your intentions 2. Do you have a job. 3. Are you my potential boo, the kind that's full of kindness, swagger-thugness, humor, and more swagger-thugness?

     As I try and observe your clothes, especially your footwear and the way that you carry yourself, I've already begun to form an opinion (Whether it is correct or not is of little consequence at this point). All to say, there is a lot of thinking involved. And my expressive face reflects this arduous journey of observation.

     To you, the male outsider, it may look like my "serious face". But I assure you, it's not. It's simply my thinking face. And the verdict is still out on you, still pending...Unless you make me smile of course, not by force, but by your own ease, confidence, and kindness.



Wisdom's Knocking:

I don't want to judge you like a mere book cover, instead I want to read you like a book.



The Wild Things Are

    


     It's pained me a little bit to not have blogged earlier this week. My mind is still reeling from the many different scenarios and topics that I now have concluding my work week in Las Vegas.

     I feel inspired and at the same time grasping. By no means, do I feel as if I've arrived, but I truly do feel accomplished.

     This month of March has already begun with lightening bolts of surprises and brushes of mediocrity. I'll spare you my cryptic metaphors and get into specifics within the next few days.

     It's weird and yet oddly fulfilling to know that you have turned over a new leaf, only to find a new garden to plant, and new ways to grow and understand the world around you.

     There is a new garden, yes. But there may be weeds in the garden. How do we face these wild things bombarding our senses and atmospheres? Grace. Fierce Grace. Trusting and believing that Goodness and Mercy will follow you all the days of your life. Regardless of where the wild things are.


Wisdom's Knocking:

The calm is not just before a storm, but after.