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So, as I was examining my heart tonight, and in the midst of listening to some goood preachin'. I spoke a new slogan: "I want to choose and have God approve". I know, not as amazing as: "Let's kick it like Tae Bo".
I'm just now wrapping my mind around love again. If God is love, and there are infinite dimensions to Him, then the same can be true for love. And of course I was thinking and evaluating romance lovin'.
I've grown in stages. The first stage was: I want every cute guy that I see...why can't I have them, Lord? that was up until early undergrad. The next stage was: I can't choose a man for myself at all, so Jesus fly a man to my door right now so I don't have to choose the wrong person and make a mistake. Ever. Yeah, that stage was up about last year.
Which brings us to this sorta new stage: Lord I'm excited to actually go through the emotions of attraction and make a choice. But still, more importantly...are You breathing Your life over this...do You Approve. But see, the big step is now in my choice...and trusting Him.
I'm so used to sensing the voice of God with so many other decisions in my life, and now I feel like I have a great deal of training to now put into practice. Specifically with this realm of romance. But funny enough, I haven't always felt this way. This is sorta new territory.
So many of us Christians are paranoid when it comes to romantic relationships. We whole heartedly desire to get it all right. Each step. Perfection. But I think in the midst of that we get so caught up in the rules that we freeze and forget to excercise true trust and freedom in the Lord. I guess it's that whole religion vs. relationship topic.
Nevertheless, what we are after is intimacy. First with God and secondly with each other. A journey is happening in my heart tonight. I'm visiting those insecure places of which I never though I'd revisit again. But I'm also seeing the promises of new joy and new hope. New peace and new love.