Light & Shadows

     Photographer: Lindsay Coleman


     Am I trying to make a name for myself? Sometimes. But in essence, I think I want to reaffirm to myself that I actually matter. It's not in the accolades of hundreds of people, it truly boils down to whether I, myself, believe it or not.

     Today, I looked at how unfair certain outcomes in life can be. And then I looked at how I fit into the midst of such puzzle pieces.

     Yes. Things may have been done and undone fairly...and yes to me. But I still matter. And I still have the ability to shine.

     The Light that I rest upon is not my own. And that's the Light that I need today.


Wisdom's Knocking:

Even bad news can be digested with Grace.



You Is Trippin'

     Artwork by: Lindsay Coleman / To Purchase Click Here.

      Sometimes I get my latest news on a friend's life from Facebook. Yes, a bit impersonal and sad, but true.

     A few minutes ago, my heart simply ached for the state of some of these otherwise amazing, sensitive, and perceptive friends of mine.

     How's that life of deception working out for you? And are you still trying to get everyone else to believe that you're perfectly fine. That spotty, cakey foundation can't cover up everything.

     And now you're just bitter. That was your choice. Yes. Somebody did you wrong. They'll get theirs in the end. But look at you, stewing in your bitterness and unforgiveness. The smell is suffocating me as I simply glance at your profile update.

     I mean, are you really happy? How much longer can you run at this speed?... I mean, before you trip?




Wisdom's Knocking:

Deception is a seductive lover that will leave you bankrupt in the end.



Two Sides of 2001

     Photographer: Milo Ventimiglia

     Eboni:

     Do you remember the summer of 2001? That's when we did summer school at Pepperdine and lived in Towers. And that's also the summer of my Adrien Brody miracle and my Robin Thicke discovery. That summer was pretty magical if I do say so myself.

     I distinctly remember being in Italy during the summer of 2001. I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do with the rest of my life. I was about to go into my senior year of college, but I felt that something profound was about to happen during that summer that would forever shape me. And that's exactly what happened.

     I took a photography and video making class at SACI which was a bit magical. It was there I learned about avant-garde film making and the beauty of the collaborative process. Mmm. So good. One day, I'll have to show you the photos that I took and the short film that Matthew and I made.

     Needless to say, in the midst of such life altering goodness, I could sense in my spirit something impending...something sad on the horizon. Like something was about to drop. I wasn't the only one picking up on this. My best friend at the time also sensed this impending sadness. It was like waiting for the "other shoe to drop".

     I carried on in Italy amidst the backdrop of these feelings and other odd events that happened to me while I was there. I left Italy with a sense of excitement. I had grown. I was not the same young woman that first stepped foot on that soil a month prior.

     August passes. But it doesn't pass me with gentleness. No. Instead, it passes me with furious love. And once again, I was changed. I won't go into a lot of detail now, but I had an incredible God encounter. One that I'm still decoding til this day.

     And then September 11th, 2001 came.

     We had gotten a call in my dorm room to turn on the television. Something unreal had just happened.
Once I turned on the TV, my mind was incredibly confused as to what I was looking at. My next thought ran to my mother.

     That morning, my mother was in process of catching a connecting flight to New York.

     Before I could start a panic attack, my phone rang. It was my mother. She was safe and sound.
They had grounded her particular plane that morning.

     And with the events of September 11th, everything changed.

     Honestly, I rarely think about the details of September 11th now. It almost feels like a distant dream. It's amazing that it's already been 10 years.

     Since September 11, 2001, I've been to "Ground Zero" many times. Several months after the event of Sept. 11th a group of university students and I served and volunteered at "Ground Zero" in the small ways that we could. It was incredibly sobering and I don't think I've experienced anything like it since.

     And although it feels like a distant dream to me, it is not forgotten. I am incredibly struck by the fact, that tragedy does not have to be an end in itself, but instead it can bring forth change that was once dammed up. And at the same time, tragedy can bring forth unity, clarity and focus to the precious gift of life that we often times throw into the category of status quo or unimportant.

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     We as human beings tend to forget.

     We forget how special this all is.

     And because of the two sides of 2001, I am now forced to be awake. Afresh. Anew.

     Awake and intentional to live. And to love.




Wisdom's Knocking:

Out of tragedy can come your biggest triumph.




School Is Back

Flynn Adam:

"Can I Kick It?" I had this song stuck in my head today and thought of you. Yeah. I'm blogging about it. You're official now.

And to those that don't know about A Tribe Called Quest (*SMH*) or for those that want to take a dip back into 1991 for a hot minute:





Wisdom's Knocking:

Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking. There is an almost universal quest for easy answers and half-baked solutions. Nothing pains some people more than having to think. 

-Martin Luther King, Jr. 

Solid!...As a Rock.

Ashford & Simpson

     The way in which things play themselves out in life are sometimes quite remarkable. It always trips me out and scares me a little when I have a particular song in my head as I walk to my car and then I happen to turn on the radio... and there it is! The song from that elusive 1984 era is just beginning to play on my radio. What. The timing of such things stirs a bit of fear and wonder in me.

     Just last Friday, I posted on my Facebook, one of my favorite jams from the 1980s:

     "Solid (As a Rock)", by the husband and wife team, Ashford & Simpson.





     Sadly, this past Monday, Nick Ashford passed away. Not only was Nick Ashford part of the legendary music duo, Ashford & Simpson, but he also penned some of the most well known and popular songs of the Motown Era: "Ain't No Mountain High Enough", "Ain't Nothing Like the Real Thing", "You're All I Need to Get By", "Reach Out and Touch (Somebody's Hand)", and many others...

     And I just remembered why I loved that "Tears Dry on Their Own" joint by Amy Winehouse. It contains the sample of "Ain't No Mountain High Enough" (Sang by Marvin Gaye and Tammi Terrell). Thank you, Nick Ashford and Valerie Simpson.

     It's not only the music of this couple that has left an impact on me, but the joy they exuded while being married and working alongside one another. I can remember at 8 years old, watching the "Solid" video, and thinking, "That's what I want when I grow up." Not necessarily a man with a press and curl, but you get the gist.

     This couple made it seem too legit to quit regarding singing with your spouse as a living. One might even think that marriage was unique and a tad blissful if you watched this couple.

     So yes. In honor of this great music couple of whom I adore, I will be singing, "Solid" at my wedding reception. Future Husband, I hope you're hip to this. I'm trying to start our future off right.




Wisdom's Knocking: 

"And for love's sake, each mistake, ah, you forgave
And soon both of us learned to trust
Not run away, it was not time to play
We build it up and build it up and build it up

And now it's solid

Solid as a Rock."

- Ashford & Simpson