I've been in a date drought of sorts, since well...................................
Okay. You get the picture.
But I have a feeling the flood gates are about to be released.
I have this sneaky feeling that I'm gonna be hit up all at once.
"Can I have your number...Can I have it?....Can I have it? Can have it?
...Can I have it?"
I know. These are honestly the things that I envision in my brilliant imagination. At that very moment, I'm not devising how I could go out and create more peace on the planet, or how to provide solutions amidst a poverty stricken world.
No, instead, I'm having full blown conversations, meetings and faux dates happen in my mind with invisible people that I have yet to see in real life.
But I can't quite shake this feeling that I'm going to have to make deliberate choices in the near future. And isn't that what we all avoid? Making choices on purpose. Because then, we'd have to own and take full responsibility for our choices, and there's a part of me that is actually like Peter Pan. There's a part of me that wants to cling to the past, to the past comforts and ways of doing things.
But here comes the new with all its shiny and all its glimmer, but if you read the fine print, it will plainly tell you, that a big mountain of surrender must be conquered before walking into the land of the new.
Didn't I just do this?
Great. Facing fears. My favorite.
But I do kinda want what's on the other side. I at least want to have a fair peek at it.
That looks like my Land of Milk and Honey.
But of course there's a dragon and a moat in the chasm between us.
So I'm trying to muster up enough...something, to just lay down. To be at rest with all that's been presented to me.
I thought we were just talking about dates in this blog post, but clearly I'm beginning to talk about more than that.
Being open and ready. That's a big deal for me. And coming into a deeper place of surrender. If I'm honest with you, I'm still fighting it... It's just...I don't want to get burned. And I don't want to be the burner unintentionally. But choices still must be made.
Ready and Willing to make good and powerful choices = Preparation for Milk and Honey.
I'm almost there, I'm almost there...
"The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
He leads me beside quiet waters,
He refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake.
Even though I walk through the darkest valley,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
-Psalm 23: 1-4